12/19/13:
I was down in the dumps this morning, fretting about not being able to buy anyone any Christmas presents and stressing over how I was going to make my last $3.48 (my bank balance and the sum total of all the money I have in the world) last until payday – the day after Christmas. My stomach was knotting up in fear over how I was going to pay my bills which are due before Christmas. I was dreading going to work because that used gas that I couldn’t afford to refill before payday but not going to work meant not getting a payday so I could buy more gas……it’s been a vicious cycle here lately.
Anyway, I got myself showered and dressed, did my hair, brushed my teeth and I was ready to leave for work. I opened the back door and it happened – a beautiful thing. A thing that put all my earthly angst in perspective. A thing that made me smile. A thing that brought light back into a dark time.
An adult male cardinal flew from my right to my left, its brilliant scarlet plumage glowing in the clear morning sunlight. My breath caught in my throat. In the milliseconds the cardinal was right in front of me, and I mean not even a foot away from my eyes, I saw beauty and grace. I saw freedom and happiness. I saw God in a glimpse of red.
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